Tra la la~

Hahhhh, ok, today was just one of those days you go through and barely notice XD
i was super tired today in painting, bah paint...yeah, i got it all over me XP meanwhile, as i'm waiting for my teacher out in the hall where he told me to wait i managed to scare the friend beast, yes dear i AM a tad creepy, sorry bout that, not intended~!! i swear >.>


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haha XD

math was boring, every single one of my friends had mysteriously vanished from campus, the bus smelled like cheese and when i got home i took like a four hour nap.

Ta daaaaah =D

Long Night

SO...it's almost three AM on a lovely Monday morning...*sigh*
you know, it sucks being a girl sometimes, you have all this emotional hardware stuck in you and then when something triggers it, it's ALWAYS crying, always. BAH. I'm tired of it.

So ya, i started reading this manga, i thought it would be nice, some manga before i go to bed, i picked a random one of the list because i really wasn't up to be picky, it turned out to be some romancy thing about a girl who has a one sided love with her friend, but her friend likes someone else. You get the gist of it. It's stuff like this that i can relate to and also stuff like this that will randomly make me burst into silent tears in the middle of the bloody night 9_9

good gravy~

To anyone reading this, i'm sorry my blogs are always so emo =/
i seem to be made of it.

Well, i hope this week is good, i hope i get food and hugs and i hope i can do better in Japanese...i need to.

Meep

Well lets see, today was dull~
i found some useful things for studying Japanese, and since i cannot now withdrawal from that class upon pain of death...i need to work T_T waaaaaah~
i'm terrible at studying~

the queen of procrastination is whipped~

Two things made me worried, well Japanese obviously and the fact that teh friend was hurt...*poke* you alive there Aaron? ok? yes?

uhm...i applied to B&N (Barnes&Noble) for the fifty millionth time (seventh) and i still highly doubt i'll get in with my PARENTS hours -_- hmf~ one of the employees who has seen me write up most of those applications mentioned that they should have a separate stack just for me...now that's embarrassing...

Meanwhile, i shall try my best, wish me luck...and uhhh, i guess on my free time i can plot...


always fun XD


P.S: i know i'm pathetic, but i need another hug~ i think that's the only thing keepin me together XD

Tis Silly~

Oh geez, i'm reeeeally lazy, at least i had a nice day until i came home and got super lethargic and emo feelin, ah well~ *listens to awesome music*
pondering boring life time~.....oh well~ Tis silly~
i know the answer to the question of the day and i don't want to hear it anymore~

They say cold hands means a warm heart...they obviously never met ME.


oh well, drawing cute things can cheer me up a bit.





You know it mr owl~

thanks for being there.

Ice Witch

bad to the bone~
or at least pretty darn cold XD

ya, i'm proud of it for an all digital feat~

Blip

Yeah, so the parents just randomly decided to go on a trip until about two or three tomorrow, so i'm home alone with nothing to do but study, which i really don't want to do but it's kind of manditory to do SOMETHING...bah~
i'm too lazy for this XP

halp~!!
my friends haven't been picking up their phones, maybe that's fate telling me to piss off and get my work done, i wonder what's up~~~
ignoring moi~!? RAWR D: <

ah well, lonely butt at home, someone rescue me~!! ya? XD

oh well, back to making flash cards~


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^ i'm way past 11% though XD

I'm Not Worthless...

Plus side- Today was pretty mellow, i went through panting class, got free green tea stuffs, got out of math early and got a ride home~ a day is really not that long i guess~
as soon as i got home though, i took a frikkin two hour nap XD i was OUT man...like a rock~

i had both my cats with me, even when i woke up, that's nice~

ah but then... ALL HELL BROKE LOOSE -_- i kid you not

v

Negative side-I had another fun filled evening at my house (aka Hell) today... to the point where mom started yelling at me and threatening to kick me out of the house (again and for the zillionth time) i'm honestly not scared anymore, i don't know what i'd do and i should be scared, but i'm not.
Then i had to talk to the step creature, it turned into a very long winded conversation, i didn't cry this time though, i congratulate myself on that XD *crybaby*
I ALMOST told him exactly what kinda dirt he goes to sleep with in his mind (aka ew porn)

I put the bug in his ear though, if he's not stupid he'll take the hint.

Meanwhile i was called worthless and still a kid and all sorts of lovely names for the list~
I'm really getting tired of this. I have no luck as usual~ i can't love anyone, i can't get affection from my own parents and i need to find a job pronto XD

or mom really WILL kick me out~

ridiculous in a CAN -_-

I can haz hug?

Oh the Horror~

I stayed up all last night drawing and watching random horror movies online~ ah well, it made me laugh, but seriously~ what kind of mental state am i in to do that from like 12 to 4 in the morning? honestly~

anyway...


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Wait...WHUT~!? O.O

I wish it was a dream at least...kay...
tis like, two thirty and just a few minutes ago one of my best friends ever just asked me out...

and not very subtly XD
UHM...

now my insides feel like they're in knots and i can do nothing about it~!! that does it, sleep? yeah right o__o

i don't know what to do~!! i've rejected him four times already...persistence, yeesh.

my minds doing the scale thing again~
But you like someone, but it's hopeless, but he's like a little brother to me, but you're lonely...
SHIET D'=

HALP

Thought Id Share.

" I can't cure your thirst
Because you who is seeking the truth
does not admit the truth.

I can't cure your thirst
Because the truth that you expect isn't there.

But i still want to cure your thirst
Because i am the one that threw you out into the desert."
FB.

A Hug or Three

Today was nice, i got coddled again but it felt nice. And then i got that little whispering voice in my head that was like " look at you, taking advantage of them again"

*broods*
Some distance must be made~

BAH, you dork, i can't get attatched to you this much~

Lets see, oh geez, i'm procrastinating homework and art...it needs doing, seriously~

i'm so tired but i can't sleep, i certainly got enough to eat today though XD i'm such a pig~

now for reading and thinking up some nice things to draw...weh~ i need more hugs~ i think a few days are added to my lifespan every time someone hugs me~ it's super awesome.

ah well, blog o the day~ *poof*

Fume

M'kay, so i have to admit, today wasn't the best of days and it looks to be getting worse actually.
I've had to reflect on myself the entire day and see what a little creep i am, no wonder everyone's all wary around me. First of all, i'm a leech, that's simple...i'm so overprotective of my friends i'm controlling, that shouldn't really be my choice to make, ah well- i guess i'm content with being everyone's "bodyguard/friend/crazy girl of the group..." now back to my shojo manga XD

The day was boring and the fact that i have to wake up early tomorrow does not help. LOL, so i got dropped off back home and even though i was procrastinating it, i was pretty dog tired myself, so i took like...this torrential ginormous nap after i said hi to my mom...

(i'm such a hypocrite)

of course, i had a weird dream, and then i woke up to my parents leaving to go get dinner...without me.
Lovely, no?

They want me to eat their nasty leftovers, NEVAR~!! no matter how hungry i am, that's just low.

Bah, then some jerk from my past wants to take me to a movie? get a LIFE you creepo -_-;

i've already seen that movie.


blech, this feels like i should be able to throw up darkness, i swear~ how very emo.

i need to draw something XP

And maybe have a good cry, that sounds good too.

Oh well~ maybe tomorrow i'll have a better day.

M'kay Then~

So school was kinda fun today~ i got to school, stuffed my face with free food and then went into the cafeteria. Which is always fun, the cafeteria is like, my PLACE- people watched~ Japanese class...MEH, omg so i have a C in that class...that's good for me, geez, i totally thought i was failing, goodness~

Then i got awesome napped and taken home~ though i didn't necessarily want to go home~ it was quiet~ but i DID have an awesome Sweeney duet with my friend on the way home~
he's awesome XD pro singing skillz~

And now, the parents are cleaning obsessively and watching that movie with the dogs and the snow and the sadness~

-__-; now the step creature is being bugged by my typing...


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^ i agree.

And Then There Was ICE CREAM

What? so i'm a taaaaad sugar high XD

Anyhow, school was freezing and boring and i was starving to death~ geez, i swear...i need to do something about this stomach of mine, like...an off switch would help. I painted like mad, got anxious and wary of eeeeverything starting at 12 last night seeing as how it IS April Fools day...n all.

Anyway, lunch was lonely until Bri and Aaron came back, i'm such a leech i swear~ XD
sorry you two~!! i shall draw you oodles of cute things~!!...WITH FLOWERS~!! O_O

uhhhm... but after that it got better, went to the bookstore and yay friends arrived ^w^
yay friends <3 bearing HUGS~!! ^w^ i can seriously live off that for a few days~

nummy~

AAAAANYhow...so then i had ice cream and i visited my "job" to see whether or not i was still hired or not, they haven't called me in for EVAR...apparently they thought it best that i work more on my studies than in their kitchen. Got it...but i'm still hired apparently O.o

iiiii think i'll start looking for another job kthanksbai.

Of course the parental units were as lovely to come home to as ever...can someone kidnap me now please? i have cookies O_O

uhh, and here i sit, procrastinating Japanese TILL THE END~!!

rah...i'm so gonna fail that class XP oh vell~ summer classes here i coooome~

what am i supposed to take again? *facepalm*

there are so many questions~!!
what school should i go to? what should i take? will i ever find a boyfriend? will i get hugs tomorrow? will i EVER do my homework~!?



who knows XD

kudos kiddlings~

Love...ish tasty.

Katch looks like she's gonna eat her bf...mai mai~ XD

yeah, besides it being "slave labor" according to the mom beast...it was decent...Japanese could have NOT been there though...hah, hopefully i'll get enough sleep to not scare someone in the morning XD

run Aaron~!! RUN~!!