Xile

So i went, i saw and did CRAZY amounts of awesome stuff, came home, did not go to sleep till like seven in the morning and i'm STILL buzzed~ i think Raven clinched it, @^@
he may kiss ever other girl in that place, but GUH, i'm way to nervous for that, zomg~
that was very freaky~

ANYWAY

Find out how much I think you're WORTH!

i haz it, you wantz it~ lol

Ouch >.<

Geez, i hope you feel better after your surgery Aaron, or as well as you can feel with all of that O_o
that's GOT to have been scary~
I think i'm gonna kidnap Brizzles and come visit you soon, wiff flowers and stuff XD ya know? the works ^_^
=}

Too Much . Too Soon~

When i was seventeen years old i went to Anime Expo, at the time it was awesome because hey, it was still in Anaheim and i could go for TWO WHOLE DAYS, amazing right? XD
Anyway, i got left behind by my ex boyfriend and co so they could do what they wanted and i was just wandering around, i had taken down some people's numbers that i didn't know from the anime expo forums so i would be able to hang out with someone if situations like this occurred. I called all of them, one answered. His name is Carey, i suppose it took me a while indeed but now that i think about it he liked me from the start. I had so many opportunities to go out with him, so many but i was so unused to relationships by then that i didn't know how special he was.

We've been best friends for the longest time now and i still like him in a weird way, i don't know, I've never really known how to describe it. But it got in the way of me and i accidentally "dropped" him. Now when you drop something it's no guarantee that someone wont come along and pick it up...which is what happened. I realized my stupidity and ran back to find that he had been picked up by a girl who would be able to meet all he asked and even live with him. He's always had this thing for wanting to marry early and start a family young and all that, he's turning twenty three soon...but here i am, claws and teeth bared to this chick who swiped him from under my nose. I know i shouldn't be so venomous but it's hard when i take a look at the big picture and realize that everyone else is going on with their lives and doing things whilst i am still barely getting along. He told me, through a regretting tone, for he knew that i wouldn't like it, that he's getting engaged...course he wants me to be there. I told him I'd be in the back.

My response, yeah, I'm a girl and I'm allowed to feel jealousy and whatever, I'm bitter because i can't find any happiness for myself and yet all my friends have no trouble whatsoever, i guess i really am strange. I have THE WORST LUCK EVAR.
In case you haven't heard.

Ode to Carey who i loved until this moment, i guess i have to let go of my choke hold now, there's nothing for me and lots for you.
Ah well, happiness to all, it doesn't work for me but may it work for you and boys, if you're in a situation like this, and if it isn't obvious already~ there is a girl somewhere who is like me, pining for love they'll never feel because it's hopeless.

*salutes* carry on~

Crab Apples vs Xile

Urg, why do i have to wake up like this? i swear, my hair looks like...blah, ok, i've got wings XD hair wings~!!
i need to do a bunch of stuff today but meh, the summer laze has got me and all i want to do is like...be lazy XD

I stayed up too late making my comic for that stupid Comic Con contest thing...
wellll~~~~
first thing's first, i get my ID card tomorrow O_O
that's a good thing, a very good thing...
maybe i can get kidnapped by Tati one of these days to go to Xile...that would be so cool T^T

I keep on finding new reasons to go, stupid Leviathan XD

damn it though~
my parents would kill me...
hmm, well what they don't know wont hurt them =}

right? RIGHT?....
crap.



Bah, anyhow, if not, AX is HAPPENING damnit XD

btw, for those of you who don't know~ Xile is a gothic night club...yeah...LOL

Honestly~

Fer serious, i got out of Japanese and it was like a bloody ghost town O_o twas freaky~
none of my friends were there and ya...i felt a little crummy~

Good thing though, i might haz a job =}

we shall see~~
anyhow, ya, silly friends~


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i needed more than one~

Lethargy

So i know that people are busy, especially during finals but it kinda worries me when i call most my friends and they don't pick up, even after school hours. Wonder what they're up to~ anywho, i had to deal with a buncha weirdness today-

from awesome art class to sleepy math class and then going to Barnes & Noble (which i'm going to tomorrow for an interview =D OH YA~) lets see, but my friend Tati was there and yeah, she looked dead (which is scary) she's usually really really happy right? yeah, two of her best friends died on Friday, i felt really bad for her, too bad she was bustling around so much, i would have given her a realllllly big hug, she needs at least 1 + 50 of them. And then the parents refused to pick me up from the bookstore, i'm gettin pretty tired of that, lucky me (for once) my friend Ori magically appeared and gave me a ride home...T^T ahh blessed friends~

But see, now i've got to stay up alllll fuckin night and deal with this studying stuff, tomorrow is doomsday...shit -_-;

Here's hoping luck shines on me one last time this semester, i really need it, i know for a fact that i passed my other two classes, i need this one, i reaaaaalllly do.

Urg.

WELL, besides all that i've been feeling strange lately (yes stranger than normal)
I guess it's that feeling you get the day you graduated from High School, that euphoria but at the same time loneliness, you know your friends are all going away. Now i know i'll get to see all the graduating dorks before they go off, but it still makes me really sad, i've always been left behind, i should be used to it by now.
lol, fuck if they think they're not coming to visit XD got that~!?

Well uhhhh, happy end of the semester =}

SUMMER~!! WHOOOOT~!!

*sleeps for like two days XD *

Finals and Walking

I'm going to die -_-;;

Well, these are prolly gonna be the longest two days of EVER XDD

night night~

*crash*

Comics @3@

HOMIGAWD, wtf am i getting myself into? i don't know~ anywho, there's this thing called the "comic book challenge" you have to come up with three pages of some random story you make up and write a little synop~ there are the top fifty, the finalists and the grand fancy pants XD
you get the idea, but uhm...people are urging me to TRY, so i think i'll try...ick, deadline iz 31st of this month. three pages, lol, piece o cake...but you know, this means i have to go to Comic Con XDD
*no objections*

I think i'm gonna try one of my new comic ideas, i really don't feel like selling RA or Katch to them T^T

vultures~!! comic vultures~!!

phew...so...wish meez luck XD and kick my ass if i'm being lazy, you'd be surprised how long it takes me to do three fucking pages~

and now for the important thing~ ya know, first thing's first~~~
get the crap outta school and IN to summer pleeeeze~

ok, ciao~

XD *falls dead into bed stuffs*

Yeaaaaaah...

So i think i just used a years worth of tears in 24 hours, how humiliating, i hate crying~ especially for that long, it makes my tongue feel like lead and makes me lethargic and sick. I didn't even get through Japanese class today, that was sad, i felt really bad though~ i'm apparently a really good actor too~ because most people didn't even know i was upset and crying until i made it very obvious XD sorry i scared some people in the cafeteria today ^^;;;

i really didn't mean to cry, i just wanted a hug...but ya know~

long story short, arguments with mom can get nasty and physical -_-;;

yep, smacked across face, yelling, threatening, yeeep~

BUT, now i'm ok~ though the parents haven't spoken to me since i've been home, i've been pretending to be super busy so i don't have to deal with it, but tomorrow will come and i'm gonna be alone in the house with her in the morning...geez.

HALP D'=

I need a stretcher built for laugh victims please XD

Uhm...holy crap...


how do you FIND something like that~!?

and more importantly...if you've watched Hello Kitty and you're under the age of 18, SHAME ON YOU~!! XD

hahahaha, omg...*dies of laughter*

Made of LOL

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just HAD to, good thing you know who Lestat is amiright Aaron? XD

So yeah~

Yay, i went to my grandma's house today and DAMN...she sews FAST O_O i'm almost done with my first AX costume...fer serious, crazy shiz~

I'm going to be meeting my OTHER grandma for breakfast (hopefully i don't catch whatever the crap she caught in Paris, sounds nasty) and see about making my OTHER costume (which shouldn't be that hard)

aweeeesooome~ yeah, i still have to do more work, geez i'm a lazy ass~ forgive me for i have ZINNED~!!

speaking of which, i heard a lot of funny stories today from my grandma whilst eating dinner with the family, all pertaining to my aunt going into church when she was little and asking who the man on a stick was XD

now i'm not religious but that was damn funny to me~ man on a stick...PFFT XD


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That works XD LOL of the day~

Oooh, look~!! pink elephants @w@

Yeah, so it's pretty late now, about 4:00...and NO ONE is online, that means i'm bored to death and under the influence of X-men, chai tea and a heavy blanket of insomnia. Hugh Jackman never hurts, no matter WHAT hour it is XD

I need to do a TON of work this weekend, hopefully i'll get my ass in gear and work on it all, i just need to survive these last few weeks, and then i can sleep however much i want...ahh =w=
Geez, i DO need to go to bed soon, or at least try, i'm starting to see things that AREN'T X-men related XD

bah, sleep, who needs to sle- *crash*

Tra la la~

Hahhhh, ok, today was just one of those days you go through and barely notice XD
i was super tired today in painting, bah paint...yeah, i got it all over me XP meanwhile, as i'm waiting for my teacher out in the hall where he told me to wait i managed to scare the friend beast, yes dear i AM a tad creepy, sorry bout that, not intended~!! i swear >.>


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haha XD

math was boring, every single one of my friends had mysteriously vanished from campus, the bus smelled like cheese and when i got home i took like a four hour nap.

Ta daaaaah =D

Long Night

SO...it's almost three AM on a lovely Monday morning...*sigh*
you know, it sucks being a girl sometimes, you have all this emotional hardware stuck in you and then when something triggers it, it's ALWAYS crying, always. BAH. I'm tired of it.

So ya, i started reading this manga, i thought it would be nice, some manga before i go to bed, i picked a random one of the list because i really wasn't up to be picky, it turned out to be some romancy thing about a girl who has a one sided love with her friend, but her friend likes someone else. You get the gist of it. It's stuff like this that i can relate to and also stuff like this that will randomly make me burst into silent tears in the middle of the bloody night 9_9

good gravy~

To anyone reading this, i'm sorry my blogs are always so emo =/
i seem to be made of it.

Well, i hope this week is good, i hope i get food and hugs and i hope i can do better in Japanese...i need to.

Meep

Well lets see, today was dull~
i found some useful things for studying Japanese, and since i cannot now withdrawal from that class upon pain of death...i need to work T_T waaaaaah~
i'm terrible at studying~

the queen of procrastination is whipped~

Two things made me worried, well Japanese obviously and the fact that teh friend was hurt...*poke* you alive there Aaron? ok? yes?

uhm...i applied to B&N (Barnes&Noble) for the fifty millionth time (seventh) and i still highly doubt i'll get in with my PARENTS hours -_- hmf~ one of the employees who has seen me write up most of those applications mentioned that they should have a separate stack just for me...now that's embarrassing...

Meanwhile, i shall try my best, wish me luck...and uhhh, i guess on my free time i can plot...


always fun XD


P.S: i know i'm pathetic, but i need another hug~ i think that's the only thing keepin me together XD

Tis Silly~

Oh geez, i'm reeeeally lazy, at least i had a nice day until i came home and got super lethargic and emo feelin, ah well~ *listens to awesome music*
pondering boring life time~.....oh well~ Tis silly~
i know the answer to the question of the day and i don't want to hear it anymore~

They say cold hands means a warm heart...they obviously never met ME.


oh well, drawing cute things can cheer me up a bit.





You know it mr owl~

thanks for being there.

Ice Witch

bad to the bone~
or at least pretty darn cold XD

ya, i'm proud of it for an all digital feat~

Blip

Yeah, so the parents just randomly decided to go on a trip until about two or three tomorrow, so i'm home alone with nothing to do but study, which i really don't want to do but it's kind of manditory to do SOMETHING...bah~
i'm too lazy for this XP

halp~!!
my friends haven't been picking up their phones, maybe that's fate telling me to piss off and get my work done, i wonder what's up~~~
ignoring moi~!? RAWR D: <

ah well, lonely butt at home, someone rescue me~!! ya? XD

oh well, back to making flash cards~


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^ i'm way past 11% though XD

I'm Not Worthless...

Plus side- Today was pretty mellow, i went through panting class, got free green tea stuffs, got out of math early and got a ride home~ a day is really not that long i guess~
as soon as i got home though, i took a frikkin two hour nap XD i was OUT man...like a rock~

i had both my cats with me, even when i woke up, that's nice~

ah but then... ALL HELL BROKE LOOSE -_- i kid you not

v

Negative side-I had another fun filled evening at my house (aka Hell) today... to the point where mom started yelling at me and threatening to kick me out of the house (again and for the zillionth time) i'm honestly not scared anymore, i don't know what i'd do and i should be scared, but i'm not.
Then i had to talk to the step creature, it turned into a very long winded conversation, i didn't cry this time though, i congratulate myself on that XD *crybaby*
I ALMOST told him exactly what kinda dirt he goes to sleep with in his mind (aka ew porn)

I put the bug in his ear though, if he's not stupid he'll take the hint.

Meanwhile i was called worthless and still a kid and all sorts of lovely names for the list~
I'm really getting tired of this. I have no luck as usual~ i can't love anyone, i can't get affection from my own parents and i need to find a job pronto XD

or mom really WILL kick me out~

ridiculous in a CAN -_-

I can haz hug?

Oh the Horror~

I stayed up all last night drawing and watching random horror movies online~ ah well, it made me laugh, but seriously~ what kind of mental state am i in to do that from like 12 to 4 in the morning? honestly~

anyway...


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Wait...WHUT~!? O.O

I wish it was a dream at least...kay...
tis like, two thirty and just a few minutes ago one of my best friends ever just asked me out...

and not very subtly XD
UHM...

now my insides feel like they're in knots and i can do nothing about it~!! that does it, sleep? yeah right o__o

i don't know what to do~!! i've rejected him four times already...persistence, yeesh.

my minds doing the scale thing again~
But you like someone, but it's hopeless, but he's like a little brother to me, but you're lonely...
SHIET D'=

HALP

Thought Id Share.

" I can't cure your thirst
Because you who is seeking the truth
does not admit the truth.

I can't cure your thirst
Because the truth that you expect isn't there.

But i still want to cure your thirst
Because i am the one that threw you out into the desert."
FB.

A Hug or Three

Today was nice, i got coddled again but it felt nice. And then i got that little whispering voice in my head that was like " look at you, taking advantage of them again"

*broods*
Some distance must be made~

BAH, you dork, i can't get attatched to you this much~

Lets see, oh geez, i'm procrastinating homework and art...it needs doing, seriously~

i'm so tired but i can't sleep, i certainly got enough to eat today though XD i'm such a pig~

now for reading and thinking up some nice things to draw...weh~ i need more hugs~ i think a few days are added to my lifespan every time someone hugs me~ it's super awesome.

ah well, blog o the day~ *poof*

Fume

M'kay, so i have to admit, today wasn't the best of days and it looks to be getting worse actually.
I've had to reflect on myself the entire day and see what a little creep i am, no wonder everyone's all wary around me. First of all, i'm a leech, that's simple...i'm so overprotective of my friends i'm controlling, that shouldn't really be my choice to make, ah well- i guess i'm content with being everyone's "bodyguard/friend/crazy girl of the group..." now back to my shojo manga XD

The day was boring and the fact that i have to wake up early tomorrow does not help. LOL, so i got dropped off back home and even though i was procrastinating it, i was pretty dog tired myself, so i took like...this torrential ginormous nap after i said hi to my mom...

(i'm such a hypocrite)

of course, i had a weird dream, and then i woke up to my parents leaving to go get dinner...without me.
Lovely, no?

They want me to eat their nasty leftovers, NEVAR~!! no matter how hungry i am, that's just low.

Bah, then some jerk from my past wants to take me to a movie? get a LIFE you creepo -_-;

i've already seen that movie.


blech, this feels like i should be able to throw up darkness, i swear~ how very emo.

i need to draw something XP

And maybe have a good cry, that sounds good too.

Oh well~ maybe tomorrow i'll have a better day.

M'kay Then~

So school was kinda fun today~ i got to school, stuffed my face with free food and then went into the cafeteria. Which is always fun, the cafeteria is like, my PLACE- people watched~ Japanese class...MEH, omg so i have a C in that class...that's good for me, geez, i totally thought i was failing, goodness~

Then i got awesome napped and taken home~ though i didn't necessarily want to go home~ it was quiet~ but i DID have an awesome Sweeney duet with my friend on the way home~
he's awesome XD pro singing skillz~

And now, the parents are cleaning obsessively and watching that movie with the dogs and the snow and the sadness~

-__-; now the step creature is being bugged by my typing...


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^ i agree.

And Then There Was ICE CREAM

What? so i'm a taaaaad sugar high XD

Anyhow, school was freezing and boring and i was starving to death~ geez, i swear...i need to do something about this stomach of mine, like...an off switch would help. I painted like mad, got anxious and wary of eeeeverything starting at 12 last night seeing as how it IS April Fools day...n all.

Anyway, lunch was lonely until Bri and Aaron came back, i'm such a leech i swear~ XD
sorry you two~!! i shall draw you oodles of cute things~!!...WITH FLOWERS~!! O_O

uhhhm... but after that it got better, went to the bookstore and yay friends arrived ^w^
yay friends <3 bearing HUGS~!! ^w^ i can seriously live off that for a few days~

nummy~

AAAAANYhow...so then i had ice cream and i visited my "job" to see whether or not i was still hired or not, they haven't called me in for EVAR...apparently they thought it best that i work more on my studies than in their kitchen. Got it...but i'm still hired apparently O.o

iiiii think i'll start looking for another job kthanksbai.

Of course the parental units were as lovely to come home to as ever...can someone kidnap me now please? i have cookies O_O

uhh, and here i sit, procrastinating Japanese TILL THE END~!!

rah...i'm so gonna fail that class XP oh vell~ summer classes here i coooome~

what am i supposed to take again? *facepalm*

there are so many questions~!!
what school should i go to? what should i take? will i ever find a boyfriend? will i get hugs tomorrow? will i EVER do my homework~!?



who knows XD

kudos kiddlings~

Love...ish tasty.

Katch looks like she's gonna eat her bf...mai mai~ XD

yeah, besides it being "slave labor" according to the mom beast...it was decent...Japanese could have NOT been there though...hah, hopefully i'll get enough sleep to not scare someone in the morning XD

run Aaron~!! RUN~!!

Gray Day

So i could have SWORN that i set my alarm to eleven thirty...i guess my body didn't want to wake up at that time, i friggin slept through my alarm clock. Now that's scary, sometimes i don't get good wake up music via the radio~ *shudders* geez, bad memories.

Anyway, i woke up at 2 PM...EXACTLY. Damn, plan failed~ Alright so I've already gorged myself on an entire pan of Mac & Cheese...i usually don't eat the entire thing anymore but i guess i was hungry. Anyhow, today shall be dedicated to the doing of Japanese homework (yeah right, i'm so damn lazy) and art...hopefully this one at LEAST.

Hah, i wish i could kidnap one of my friends or something, it's kind of boring being alone, yes yes, i had a fun day with a few of them yesterday but it's completely gray out today, it's disgusting.
It saps ALL life from you and makes you just want to gel in front of the comp or the TV. Blech.

I guess it's just one of those days~

Furthermore i need to start up some of my rusty webcomics again, this is getting ridiculous~

too much to do, not enough time or energy to do it~!! HALP~

and now my step dad is trying to be smart...i think it's time for work naow...


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^ Aaron, i totally blame you XD

Beach- Screw You Poseidon!!

Yeah, Poseidon didn't get me this time, i didn't go near the water~ it was cloudy and freezing arse cold out, what do you expect~!?

ok yeah, if you didn't get that, i went to the beach with my friends Aaron and Bri, everyone knows i can only be persuaded now by those two XD and as a bonus i got to torture poor Aaron with my poke attacks~ he's so adorable~ no wonder everyone wants him~

So i spent a nice day at the beach, nothing like throwing away a monotonous day of work and focus to go crack jokes on the sand and watch overweight seagulls carry off napkins. After which i started talking about Dane Cooks "harpo" gag, which included a certain website that tells you where sexual predators are in your community...they're all near the beach...eek XD

THATS RIGHT, i saw you mr man with binoculars~!! the sea gulls aren't THAT interesting~!!

So anyway, i got sand where i didn't want it, got my full dose of laughter for about a week, ate an overly meaty burrito, watched I Am Legend amidst the frightened squeaking from Bri and the Commentary from Aaron~ it's nice to have friends like that~

Yeah, and if you've watched that movie...take a moment to think...what happened to all the chihuahua sized pigeons? O_O *cue psycho music*

Bacon & Tea

So there are funnier ways to wake up, sure~ but going to sleep at 3 AM, rolling out of bed at 2 PM and finding that the only thing to eat in the house is bacon...yeah, i find it amusing. So yeah, here i sit,(obviously not breakfast time) eating bacon and drinking a cup of scalding green tea (mmmm, just how i like it) it's ridiculous, i'm even in the clothes i wore yesterday(lazy), just plus a fuzzy purple robe~ what? it was frikkin cold last night D: <

Anyway, at least i got my thought process straight enough to figure out OK, you did stupid things yesterday, you need to do better things today~ i hope i can get some time in on my art project and do a few pages for some of my comics...T_T oh i'm soooo lazy~
GEEZ i'd better get out of the house this weekend, i'm gonna go loopy if i have to spend the rest of the time i have left of school studying and staying lazy in my house~ YES i like to go places, NO i don't like the process i have to go through to get there~ that requires miles of walking XD

though i could sneak up on my friend, *rummages through addresses)

So here i sit, staring at my little slime plush that's constantly staring at me from the top of my monitor O__O <--- pretty much.

So enjoy your day while i eat my bacon and have my tea...

mahaha~ *poof*

Lets try this~

Yep, i've finally made one of these things after quite a long time of watching and reading some of my friends stuff~ yay the lurker has come out~
i've never been really good at writing things
but i guess stuff can magically come to mind and you can read about it~

...because i think that's how this works o_e

*eyetwitch*

anyhow~

i'll try my best to continue this and see how much i can mess with your poor minds~!! fwahahaha~

This is Katch, and i have your full attention~...lolnotreally~

ok, i'm done XD