Ouch >.<

Geez, i hope you feel better after your surgery Aaron, or as well as you can feel with all of that O_o
that's GOT to have been scary~
I think i'm gonna kidnap Brizzles and come visit you soon, wiff flowers and stuff XD ya know? the works ^_^
=}

Too Much . Too Soon~

When i was seventeen years old i went to Anime Expo, at the time it was awesome because hey, it was still in Anaheim and i could go for TWO WHOLE DAYS, amazing right? XD
Anyway, i got left behind by my ex boyfriend and co so they could do what they wanted and i was just wandering around, i had taken down some people's numbers that i didn't know from the anime expo forums so i would be able to hang out with someone if situations like this occurred. I called all of them, one answered. His name is Carey, i suppose it took me a while indeed but now that i think about it he liked me from the start. I had so many opportunities to go out with him, so many but i was so unused to relationships by then that i didn't know how special he was.

We've been best friends for the longest time now and i still like him in a weird way, i don't know, I've never really known how to describe it. But it got in the way of me and i accidentally "dropped" him. Now when you drop something it's no guarantee that someone wont come along and pick it up...which is what happened. I realized my stupidity and ran back to find that he had been picked up by a girl who would be able to meet all he asked and even live with him. He's always had this thing for wanting to marry early and start a family young and all that, he's turning twenty three soon...but here i am, claws and teeth bared to this chick who swiped him from under my nose. I know i shouldn't be so venomous but it's hard when i take a look at the big picture and realize that everyone else is going on with their lives and doing things whilst i am still barely getting along. He told me, through a regretting tone, for he knew that i wouldn't like it, that he's getting engaged...course he wants me to be there. I told him I'd be in the back.

My response, yeah, I'm a girl and I'm allowed to feel jealousy and whatever, I'm bitter because i can't find any happiness for myself and yet all my friends have no trouble whatsoever, i guess i really am strange. I have THE WORST LUCK EVAR.
In case you haven't heard.

Ode to Carey who i loved until this moment, i guess i have to let go of my choke hold now, there's nothing for me and lots for you.
Ah well, happiness to all, it doesn't work for me but may it work for you and boys, if you're in a situation like this, and if it isn't obvious already~ there is a girl somewhere who is like me, pining for love they'll never feel because it's hopeless.

*salutes* carry on~

Crab Apples vs Xile

Urg, why do i have to wake up like this? i swear, my hair looks like...blah, ok, i've got wings XD hair wings~!!
i need to do a bunch of stuff today but meh, the summer laze has got me and all i want to do is like...be lazy XD

I stayed up too late making my comic for that stupid Comic Con contest thing...
wellll~~~~
first thing's first, i get my ID card tomorrow O_O
that's a good thing, a very good thing...
maybe i can get kidnapped by Tati one of these days to go to Xile...that would be so cool T^T

I keep on finding new reasons to go, stupid Leviathan XD

damn it though~
my parents would kill me...
hmm, well what they don't know wont hurt them =}

right? RIGHT?....
crap.



Bah, anyhow, if not, AX is HAPPENING damnit XD

btw, for those of you who don't know~ Xile is a gothic night club...yeah...LOL

Honestly~

Fer serious, i got out of Japanese and it was like a bloody ghost town O_o twas freaky~
none of my friends were there and ya...i felt a little crummy~

Good thing though, i might haz a job =}

we shall see~~
anyhow, ya, silly friends~


more cat pictures

i needed more than one~

Lethargy

So i know that people are busy, especially during finals but it kinda worries me when i call most my friends and they don't pick up, even after school hours. Wonder what they're up to~ anywho, i had to deal with a buncha weirdness today-

from awesome art class to sleepy math class and then going to Barnes & Noble (which i'm going to tomorrow for an interview =D OH YA~) lets see, but my friend Tati was there and yeah, she looked dead (which is scary) she's usually really really happy right? yeah, two of her best friends died on Friday, i felt really bad for her, too bad she was bustling around so much, i would have given her a realllllly big hug, she needs at least 1 + 50 of them. And then the parents refused to pick me up from the bookstore, i'm gettin pretty tired of that, lucky me (for once) my friend Ori magically appeared and gave me a ride home...T^T ahh blessed friends~

But see, now i've got to stay up alllll fuckin night and deal with this studying stuff, tomorrow is doomsday...shit -_-;

Here's hoping luck shines on me one last time this semester, i really need it, i know for a fact that i passed my other two classes, i need this one, i reaaaaalllly do.

Urg.

WELL, besides all that i've been feeling strange lately (yes stranger than normal)
I guess it's that feeling you get the day you graduated from High School, that euphoria but at the same time loneliness, you know your friends are all going away. Now i know i'll get to see all the graduating dorks before they go off, but it still makes me really sad, i've always been left behind, i should be used to it by now.
lol, fuck if they think they're not coming to visit XD got that~!?

Well uhhhh, happy end of the semester =}

SUMMER~!! WHOOOOT~!!

*sleeps for like two days XD *

Finals and Walking

I'm going to die -_-;;

Well, these are prolly gonna be the longest two days of EVER XDD

night night~

*crash*

Comics @3@

HOMIGAWD, wtf am i getting myself into? i don't know~ anywho, there's this thing called the "comic book challenge" you have to come up with three pages of some random story you make up and write a little synop~ there are the top fifty, the finalists and the grand fancy pants XD
you get the idea, but uhm...people are urging me to TRY, so i think i'll try...ick, deadline iz 31st of this month. three pages, lol, piece o cake...but you know, this means i have to go to Comic Con XDD
*no objections*

I think i'm gonna try one of my new comic ideas, i really don't feel like selling RA or Katch to them T^T

vultures~!! comic vultures~!!

phew...so...wish meez luck XD and kick my ass if i'm being lazy, you'd be surprised how long it takes me to do three fucking pages~

and now for the important thing~ ya know, first thing's first~~~
get the crap outta school and IN to summer pleeeeze~

ok, ciao~

XD *falls dead into bed stuffs*

Yeaaaaaah...

So i think i just used a years worth of tears in 24 hours, how humiliating, i hate crying~ especially for that long, it makes my tongue feel like lead and makes me lethargic and sick. I didn't even get through Japanese class today, that was sad, i felt really bad though~ i'm apparently a really good actor too~ because most people didn't even know i was upset and crying until i made it very obvious XD sorry i scared some people in the cafeteria today ^^;;;

i really didn't mean to cry, i just wanted a hug...but ya know~

long story short, arguments with mom can get nasty and physical -_-;;

yep, smacked across face, yelling, threatening, yeeep~

BUT, now i'm ok~ though the parents haven't spoken to me since i've been home, i've been pretending to be super busy so i don't have to deal with it, but tomorrow will come and i'm gonna be alone in the house with her in the morning...geez.

HALP D'=

I need a stretcher built for laugh victims please XD

Uhm...holy crap...


how do you FIND something like that~!?

and more importantly...if you've watched Hello Kitty and you're under the age of 18, SHAME ON YOU~!! XD

hahahaha, omg...*dies of laughter*

Made of LOL

more cat pictures

just HAD to, good thing you know who Lestat is amiright Aaron? XD

So yeah~

Yay, i went to my grandma's house today and DAMN...she sews FAST O_O i'm almost done with my first AX costume...fer serious, crazy shiz~

I'm going to be meeting my OTHER grandma for breakfast (hopefully i don't catch whatever the crap she caught in Paris, sounds nasty) and see about making my OTHER costume (which shouldn't be that hard)

aweeeesooome~ yeah, i still have to do more work, geez i'm a lazy ass~ forgive me for i have ZINNED~!!

speaking of which, i heard a lot of funny stories today from my grandma whilst eating dinner with the family, all pertaining to my aunt going into church when she was little and asking who the man on a stick was XD

now i'm not religious but that was damn funny to me~ man on a stick...PFFT XD


see more crazy cat pics

That works XD LOL of the day~

Oooh, look~!! pink elephants @w@

Yeah, so it's pretty late now, about 4:00...and NO ONE is online, that means i'm bored to death and under the influence of X-men, chai tea and a heavy blanket of insomnia. Hugh Jackman never hurts, no matter WHAT hour it is XD

I need to do a TON of work this weekend, hopefully i'll get my ass in gear and work on it all, i just need to survive these last few weeks, and then i can sleep however much i want...ahh =w=
Geez, i DO need to go to bed soon, or at least try, i'm starting to see things that AREN'T X-men related XD

bah, sleep, who needs to sle- *crash*